Friday, September 23, 2011

my confusion

When I go to the temple, i think and think and pray and pray that i can feel dad or be comforted by him. Is he actually there, or is it just my "wishful" thinking and hope? But i can honestly say, that i am unsure. Am i not in tune with the spirit enough? am i unrighteous? or is dad gone.
I always thought, especially in the temple, that i would have an overwhelming feeling of presence and comfort. when i am in holy places, i always think and hope and pray that dad is there too. but i am not having that SURE feeling of comfort or that SURE feeling that he IS there. I could not testify of any spiritual experiences where i felt him there. i have left the temple confused and feeling like the line between my hope and my reality is clouded.
i always wish i could have dad with me. but i am feeling the light dim. as everyone is scattered all over the states and busy with there lives, i am feeling very disconnected with my family and my "roots". i miss everyone everyday. any thoughts or advice for me on this??
love you all so much
janelle